07 September 2009

I wish it was "still the same"...

Nausea has stepped up, and the um.. emesis (throwing up...) is worse. A Lot. Not in quantity, just every time he stands up, it seems, something triggers, and he's back standing over the toilet. I've tried Emetrol for him. Not doing a WHOLE lot of good. *IF* he were eating, it may be worse.. not sure.

Voice is shot, from the throwing up, and the radiation...

I know it's selfish of me.. but MAN, October can't get here soon enough. It's bad enough to watch all this happening.. and knowing I can't take any of it away for him. But it seems like no help I offer even touches any of what is happening... I just hope that after the treatments are finished, the side effects abate quickly....

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Honey, I know it may seem like Ken isn't being properly appreciatetive but it is very hard to be thankful when he is feeling so bad. I am sure that when the treatments are over & all the side effects are gone Ken will be very grateful to you & the girls for EVERYTHING you have done.
I just wish we lived closer so I could come & give a hand but it just isn't possible.
Please pass my thought to Ken & try to keep your chin up & remember - "this too shall pass".

Tori said...

We love you guys so much & if you need me to come hang out with Ken so you can take the girls out call me & I'm there...

Anonymous said...

Tori - you don't know me but I am very grateful that Katie (my daughter) & Ken have such good friends as you. I think Katie would like some help but she WON'T ask for it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Anonymous said...

That is me again. My mistake!!AGAIN.

Katie said...

Mom,
It's not a matter of Ken being ungrateful. Far from it. It's just that nothing I CAN do, seems to make any difference.. THAT"s what's so discouraging.

Linda Lanter. Marker said...

Oh Sweet katie: There is nothing selfish is what you have said. You are there with him, I think that's called selfless. I wrote something last night that said "you are both going through this". It's hard to watch the big strong guy you love go through so much and you feel you can't do anything, but you are my love. You are there with him and that is everything he needs at the moment. I fully understand because last October I was going through Skeeter's cancer recovery and thankfully no radiation was involved. There are times' you both will feel useless and you HAVE to take the time to let each other have that moment, out of love.

I'm sending Ken an email in a few minutes about the surprise I've been working on so hopefully you can get into his email. If not, email me at lmarker@zoomtown.com and I'll send the info to you. Please Katie, know you ARE doing ALL you can do. Love Aunt Linda

Dani said...

I can't imaging what you ALL are going through! Just know we are all here praying for you and ANYTHING we can do to help, just say the word! We love you guys and will be there for you however we can. Hang in there! Love ya!