19 October 2009

I'm not done yet...


"Uprising" by Muse:

Paranoia is in bloom,
The PR transmissions will resume,
They'll try to push drugs that keep us all dumbed down,
And hope that we will never see the truth around
(So come on)
Another promise, another scene,
Another packaged lie to keep us trapped in greed,
And all the green belts wrapped around our minds,
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on)

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
We will be victorious
(So come on)


Interchanging mind control,
Come let the revolution take it's toll,
If you could flick a switch and open your third eye,
You'd see that
We should never be afraid to die
(So come on)

Rise up and take the power back,
It's time the fat cats had a heart attack,
You know that their time's coming to an end,
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
We will be victorious

Ok, it's official. I am done letting the effects of the chemo and radiation win. The past month has been nothing but sheer hell and I am done letting it get to me. Two trips to the hospital, near constant nausea, all the barfing and the not being able to talk due to the thrush and the mucusitis has done all it can do to get me down. To be honest, it nearly succeeded. I have been less than pleasant to live with lately. I have been a touch grouchy and a whole lot of irritable. That is why there hasn't been any updates recently. I have not wanted to let people know how miserable I have been (hell, to be honest, I just didn't want to deal with people at all) and poor Katie just doesn't know what to write when I am like that. Well, that ends today. I am at the bottom. Chemo & radiation side effects cannot possibly have anything else to throw at me, so I am starting to climb up out of this hole those traitors have put me in.

I will win. It may take longer than I want, but I will win. The champ is back!

2 comments:

Pat Moning said...

Well Ken, I am sure glad to hear that from you. I have been really worried about you & Katie did tell me that you have been feeling "awful" lately. You & your family could use a little "good luck" right about now & I sincerely hope that some will come your way soon. Real soon!!!!!
I am proud of you for going through with the treatmenmt like you did. I KNOW I would have thrown in the towel.

Dani said...

I know you've been through hell the past several weeks. So glad to hear you are finally able to see a glimmer of light at the end of this road! You WILL get there, I know! Love ya!

Dani, Kevin, Bailey & Drew